John finds his equilibrium eventually, wrapped around and within Arthur, each entwined coil limned in gold as it is. He settles and he withdraws slowly, the warmth remaining like the impression of a hug or the touch of a hand, and he turns his head to kiss Arthur's temple as punctuation to it all.

And of course, once he can handle himself, once he's worked through all the huge, overwhelming emotions-

Does it- does it hurt you too sometimes?