"It also means that the people he killed didn't stay that way," because Arthur didn't give him that leniency for a reason. He'd had to use his deal to fix the deaths he'd brought about. Edwin just had to apologize.
Which is differently hard, he won't ignore that. He's already dreading the moment he meets Parker.
He considers if he wants to say what he feels, or rather what he'd felt, before deciding that yes, he'll say so.
"I have... fears. Sometimes. Of people liking him better. Of people seeing me as... the broken one. Of being broken, somewhere, by what the King did, or my time in the Dark World again. Some crack deep inside that can't be seen until something hits me and it... shatters me."
He huffs and shakes like a dog before moving along.
Re: somewhere before the port
Which is differently hard, he won't ignore that. He's already dreading the moment he meets Parker.
He considers if he wants to say what he feels, or rather what he'd felt, before deciding that yes, he'll say so.
"I have... fears. Sometimes. Of people liking him better. Of people seeing me as... the broken one. Of being broken, somewhere, by what the King did, or my time in the Dark World again. Some crack deep inside that can't be seen until something hits me and it... shatters me."
He huffs and shakes like a dog before moving along.
"It's stupid. I know it's stupid."